movement

last week was a much anticipated week in the world of korean adoption. after much delay and confusion, ep's have finally started to be submitted. looking around at blogs of other adoptive families my heart smiles as they share their family's news of taking the next step in the process. so exciting.

i also spotted a customer in line this morning holding parenting your internationally adopted child. as i made his white mocha i blurted out, "micheal, i have to ask, are you adopting?" his face spread into a smile as he told me they were leaving this afternoon to travel to ethiopia. we chatted a little about how long the wait has been and about his little girl. he showed me beautiful pictures. and i was just overwhelmed with joy for him and his wife who have been waiting three whole years.

the past couple months have been somewhat crushing because as people would ask me, "when is she coming home?" i had no answer to give them. i just had to explain that i really had no idea and that we were just waiting.

a month ago beniah was talking about sharing his bathroom with joey and i mentioned to him that he would also be sharing it with hanul when he came home. he responded, "she won't come home for a long, long time. she is far away." hearing those words out of his mouth was heartbreaking. he used to tell me she was coming home soon, sometimes it was even tomorrow. and while i obviously knew that wasn't true hearing the hope in his answers was light. this response was like darkness. but now there is a  light at the end of the tunnel.

the uncertainty of adoption causes you to constantly hold fast to the promises of the lord. and i will continue to wait-i know we have some time. we have been waiting (since referral) for six months and families who were submitted first have been waiting upwards of a year. just knowing there is movement is good enough for my heart for the time being. and my delight comes from seeing others welcoming home their sweet gifts from the lord.