week three

i can't believe its been three weeks since beniah was born. it's definitely been a period of immense emotions-both positive and negative. we have experienced such an out pour of love from our friends & family. i think our fridge will be stocked for the next 3 months. and i'm blown away by all the generous gifts we have received. he is such a lucky child.

thankfully my little one is finally gaining weight. all babies loose weight initially, but after trying so hard to breastfeed i was devastated when the pediatrician told me i needed to supplement him with formula last week. i was starting to feel like i wasn't meant to be a mother. after not being able to go into labor naturally like i wanted, and then not being able to birth him as i wanted (instead i had a c-section) all i had left that i really wanted to do was breastfeed...and that wasn't working out. so i was frustrated, but following dave's advice i knew beniah needed to gain weight and that this decision was probably best for him. i do have to admit that i didn't do it as often as the doctor suggested-i worried about him giving up on breastfeeding completely because he would get fed from a bottle with ease compared to the breast. but after no sleep for almost 3 days straight i was forced to let him have more formula than i wanted when dave and my dad took over and made me sleep. and thankfully-he made up his weight...actually gaining a little more than 2 oz. every day (an ounce a day is typical). so its back to exclusively breastfeeding-which is why i'm writing this post at 4 am. hopefully we will be successful this time around.

soo.for lack of a better intro...more pictures :)

this is pretty much his awake face..


hanging out at the house..


bright eyes..